i wonder

It has been a year of TRY.
For the past few years, I have chosen a theme word and 2017 was the year for me to try things that I was afraid to attempt. Many things have been tried, some successfully and others not so successfully. Jobs were applied to, dance classes were attended, 5k’s were experienced and partially run, steps were taken toward building trust in marriage, learning new things took place and more.
There were successes
and there were failures.

A funny thing happens (to me at least) when failure finds its way into my life.
Rather than embracing failure and allowing it to be, as Yoda says, “The courageous teacher, failure is,”
I quit.
I hide.
I worry about what people think of me.

2017 was my year of TRY.
I tried… And I got lost.
I started going through the motions rather than truly living life.
I filled my days with busyness so that the things I actually love doing were last on the list, becoming something to check off rather than an experience to enjoy.
I let the words, actions and choices of others decide that I was insufficient and unworthy.
I worried about what other people thought of me and I compared myself to the outward appearances of others.
All of this sucked the life right out of me.

The new year is approaching and I have decided on a new and very important word to be my theme for the year.

I will WONDER.

I will WONDER what beauty God’s creation has in store for me as I take in my surroundings rather than rush through the day without noticing.
I will WONDER about the positive outcome rather assume the negative.
I will WONDER how long it will take me to master something new rather than assume I can’t and give up.
I will WONDER about the hearts of people and do my best to remember that the negative actions of people come from a place of pain rather than assume they dislike me.
I will WONDER who will be blessed by something I post on my blog rather than assume no one cares.

I may get lost again in 2018, but hopefully I will get lost in WONDER.

 

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Just wondering…

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  1. It’s been a “trying” year for many of us, and I sincerely hope and pray that you never forget that you are special, worthy, admired, and loved. Keep trying Terri! And remember, God wants us to grow in the dirt other people leave in our lives, but you don’t have to spoon it onto your breakfast cereal. Keep your knees bent, your chin up and your eyes wide open to wonder. I love you dear lady. ❤️

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